But I Doubt

Matthew 28:17-20

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It’s been a week when the deadline for the renewal of my passport passed and within the days that passed, I have experienced His perfect peace though sometimes the devil is still trying to detour my mind from His promises for my life and my family here in Almaty.

As I am about to finish the chapter, I started contemplating verse 17, but some doubted. I searched my heart, do I still doubt His promises for me? Do I still have this unsteady calling from Him? Do I still have this wavering faith that He can provide my needs, our needs just right on time? While I was searching for my heart and asking my soul, I was praying that there will be no more trace of doubt, fear, and worries existing. Then I found out that my heart is really fully at peace with Him and His faithfulness and my mind is just close enough to listen to the devil’s deception though he is trying to find ways penetrating and make me insane again.

But as I continue reading the verses, He refreshes me of who He really is and what He is doing to my life and my family’s life.

He reminded me of the very reason why I should stay calm and peaceful in spite of what is happening in the world, that is beyond my control. When he said, “All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth.” that means the only thing that I should do is surrender all my cares to His will for He can command all the forces in heaven and on earth to be at my aid. 
He reminded me the sole purpose why He brought me in Kazakhstan with all His supernatural thing that I had directly experienced from the Philippines and Korea and even for four years of living here in Almaty, is to “Go and make disciples” of all Muslims, atheists, and all non-believing people of Kazakhstan that He gives me. He never failed to remind me of the Father’s business.

He reminded me that as I obey, He will be with me and my family now, all throughout our days here on earth until He comes again, so there is nothing to worry about for our needs amidst this great challenge that we are facing right now.

This is therefore I believe, that He will bless every one of us. For the promise of Grace and abundance is for you and for your children and even for your children’s children.

This is not just a reminder for me but a great comfort for us that we rest assured that our Father is in His business of keeping us strong in faith until the end as we keep on doing His will here on earth.
18 Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”